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Chapter 1
Chapter One
I had a pretty restless night. I started thinking over everything that had happened in the past month, everything that had changed in a blink of an eye. Had I ever expected to end up like this? There were moments when I wished I had died in that fire too. I hated myself for surviving when the rest of my family didn’t stand a chance.
Sleep eluded me. Slowly I threw off the blanket covering me and changed into something a little longer.
Slowly and as silent as I could, not to wake up my grandparents, I went down the stairs and then out on the front lawn where my dear swing was swaying slightly in the night breeze. It was quite cool outside, but I didn’t care. The day coming was the last one I was going to spend in the protective shell of my grandparents’ house. My first day of highschool was only one day away. Gulp!
I just stood out there for some time, I think about two hours passed, then went back to bed. I really felt better.
I opened my eyes slowly against the bright morning light as I heard grandma shout from downstairs. My breakfast was ready. Yawn! Oh my! It’s already 12…I scrambled out of bed and went in the bathroom for the morning routine, then changed into my everyday outfit. Suddenly, without a sign, I began to cry, almost howl. This used to happen quite often…starting to cry so suddenly. But this was due to my memories. I had just noticed a blouse that used to belong to my mom on the clothing hamper. It hurt so badly! I could almost feel the smell of her perfume drift towards me. She was gone…
Grandma awoke me from my “trance” as her voice drifted impatiently from downstairs again.
‘Come, dear! Your eggs are getting cold!’
I clenched my fists and swallowed hard against the tears. No one has to know I had been crying again. I have to show everyone I am strong…I will get over this! I just rubbed my eyes and wiped the tears from my face, tried to smile and get myself in a more cheerful mood then went down for breakfast.
There could be no doubt about it: grandma Gypsy sure knows how to cook! Her eggs with bacon are the best I have ever eaten in my life. Still I would give everything I have to eat the burnt toaster pastries mom used to cook for breakfast.
After I had eaten, grandma called me to the living room. It was really sweet of her: she told me she loved me very much and she knows what I’m going through and we both began to cry. I think this made us bond more than we had done when I was a kid. She then asked me whether I wanted to go shopping for some clothing today…why not? It seemed I hadn’t done that in ages.I felt I needed to change something in my life in order to get over the past events.
So we all took a taxi to a nice shopping district. I looked around the clothing racks and immediately doubted grandma’s fashion taste. This wasn’t actually something I would wear! Ever!
Finally I found something suitable for my age: a cute dress with flowers on it. I tried it on and gran was also pleased. Maybe we did have something in common after all…
Before going home, we had lunch at a nearby diner. The shopping day had been quite a nice distraction, the first time I had been into town after the death of my parents and siblings. I still didn’t completely comprehend…it felt like a nightmare from which I would awake any moment. But even though I was still hoping and waiting, the moment seemed delayed…
For the rest of the day I decided to just relax and confront the fears of changes that were about to happen. I love looking at the sky…it makes me feel I’m not alone and I know it’s the one thing that is the same everywhere.
As the day drew to an end, I got back in the house and slouched on my bed with a book. Reading is one of my favorite hobbies!
But it got dark really soon and I had to prepare my stuff for the next day. I had a really weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was going to highschool! But where were mom and dad when I needed them so much?
Here ends the 1st chapter. Tell me what you think of it please! :D